Well I Haven't Posted In A While And Tonight Is Better Than Any Other So Far. Tonight i went to the Tuesday Night High School Worship at FCC and i really got into it. I have never been very religious, and my faith was severely crippled after my brother's death. I didn't see a point, I believed in God but I was angry with him. Everything happens for a reason I kept getting told but where was my answer, I have never recieved it. Yet tonight i felt a sinc eof security in my brother's death. I felt as though not God but, he was there with me. I felt like he was watching me and i felt protected. I never believed that something this profound would happen to me at church. Church has always been another, in my opinion, false need to show that you believe in something. I believed that church was just a place where people that had beliefs felt like they could secure them, and never really delved into myself and saw church as part of me. But as we stood singing and rejoicing I felt the prescence of my brother and I felt overcome with so many emotions I could not describe it. The hatred I have for God for not showing me why my brother was lost so tragically will always be within me, but tonight I got a sense that that was ok and that although the hatred brews within me God still loves me and my brother is ok and watching over me. I hope this is not the last time this feeling envelopes me. It strengthened my faith some and although waivering I long to continue my religious trek and see where it takes me.
I also want to thank Kayla, Amanda, and Courtney for inviting me and being at the Tuesday night meetings. I appreciate your friendship, and after tonight realize my love for you guys and all the aspects of my life.
Love Ya
~Flick
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Oh My God!
Ok, so a lot of my friends from class and I went on this college trip for the last few days. It was quite amazing. There is so much to talk about that i don't know if i can fit it all in. There were points in which it wasn't so great sickness and some other stuff that you can ask me about if you want. But overall in my opinion it was a good trip.
Day 1: Woke up before the sunrise to catch the plane from San Diego to San Jose. I was holding some of Kayla's make-up and it was quite embarrassing (IT"S MANSCARA! :P). After arriving in San Jose we got on the bus and headed for Monterey Bay. After a fun little walk around downtown, seeing Kayla's old stripper suit :P and having some subway, we went out to the wharf and had to hustle back to the bus to get there on time.
We went to the aquarium for a while but it got a little boring after the amusement of Kayla's fear of sharks. We headed to our hotel next. It looked bad when we first arrived (we got lost here for a little), but the hotel turned out to be pretty cool. Max, John, Brian M. and I got the nice balla room since we traded Stephanie and Sue. Immediately we went to the beach, and later more people came down. THE WATER WAS SO COLD! We buried Max and Max and I have kinda a secret key word for something now SLAMIN'! After that we went back to the hotel and then headed to the Boardwalk. Kayla, Courtney, Max, Brian P., Jow, and I went down it and got some dinner at this Mexican place. GIANT BURRITO! enough said. On the way back we stopped by a couple stores and then we found it, amazing, WILSON! We went out to the beach and started playing volleyball. Courtney is really good, and i'm still getting sand outta my "hair" haha jk. We played for a while, then went back up to the hotel just to find out that we were about to head back down to play more with more people :P. After going to our room the girls played a prank with feminine necessities and tomato juice, John flipped out but max and i were like w/e. We went back to the hotel around 9:30 and most people headed to our room until about 11 when they left for their own rooms, soon later Brian M. and John passed out in our room while me and Max decided to chill out on the patio and just talk for a while, about 3:30 or 4 we finally fell asleep watching Carlos Mencia.
Day 2: Woke up at like 7 got ready and ate a little. We got a new bus (bigger) but the AC didn't work so at Walmart we switched to one, that unfortunetaly had a heated area on the driver side that took it's toll on me later. We went to UC Berkeley which was really nice, but had way to many stairs! lol. Telegraph Road was weird! After this we got back on the bus and i was by the heat, and headed to San Fran State, except we headed in the wrong direction had to turn around then got lost for like an hour in San Fran. I was like out of it just cause the heat and sun were getting to me, and Kayla was lucky and got to sleep through this lost incident. We got there and they were having a power outage. After a quick tour we headed for fisherman's wharf.
We walked around for a while followed the girls shopping and i forgot my chocolate :P but it was cool, I Walk It Out, I Walk It Out! hahaha. We barely made it back to the bus, with some BK and green icees haha. Long drive back to the hotel. We got there and went to play volleyball, it was ok but not as good as the day before. Rainbow wasn't feeling well :P sorry had to. We went back to the hotel and chilled this is where all the stuff went down in the girls room hahahaha max. Then later everyone chilled at Our room thet night.
Day 3: Another bus, another morning, i wasn't feeling to great this day, physically and some other stuff i was thnking about. We went to UC Santa Cruz and had a stoner tour guide. Good guide just weird when the adults were gone :P. It was nice but yeah, the we went back to San Jose and went to state there. It was hot and sunny but not a bad campus in the middle of the city. Later went to a mall and followed the girls around again. Finished there we some extreme bouncy ballin. Went to the airport and got to our gate, played cards for a while, and i really was feeling bad thats why i was really slow in Egyptian Rat Screw i think its called. We had a nice little plane ride we this awesome flight attendant. We played some rumey and go fish, and this secret that i am supposed to keep show its ugly head, but w/e. We got to SD and got off, i was really tired, forgot my chcoclate in max's bag and had to go get it. After saying goodbye, i left and got home, packed up my backpack for school today, took a shower, got attacked by my dog, and then went to bed on my new mattress and temper putic or however its spelled. Woke up today to see amanda's pictures up and was happy, and wnated to post so yeah.
Good trip overall.
~Flick
Day 1: Woke up before the sunrise to catch the plane from San Diego to San Jose. I was holding some of Kayla's make-up and it was quite embarrassing (IT"S MANSCARA! :P). After arriving in San Jose we got on the bus and headed for Monterey Bay. After a fun little walk around downtown, seeing Kayla's old stripper suit :P and having some subway, we went out to the wharf and had to hustle back to the bus to get there on time.
We went to the aquarium for a while but it got a little boring after the amusement of Kayla's fear of sharks. We headed to our hotel next. It looked bad when we first arrived (we got lost here for a little), but the hotel turned out to be pretty cool. Max, John, Brian M. and I got the nice balla room since we traded Stephanie and Sue. Immediately we went to the beach, and later more people came down. THE WATER WAS SO COLD! We buried Max and Max and I have kinda a secret key word for something now SLAMIN'! After that we went back to the hotel and then headed to the Boardwalk. Kayla, Courtney, Max, Brian P., Jow, and I went down it and got some dinner at this Mexican place. GIANT BURRITO! enough said. On the way back we stopped by a couple stores and then we found it, amazing, WILSON! We went out to the beach and started playing volleyball. Courtney is really good, and i'm still getting sand outta my "hair" haha jk. We played for a while, then went back up to the hotel just to find out that we were about to head back down to play more with more people :P. After going to our room the girls played a prank with feminine necessities and tomato juice, John flipped out but max and i were like w/e. We went back to the hotel around 9:30 and most people headed to our room until about 11 when they left for their own rooms, soon later Brian M. and John passed out in our room while me and Max decided to chill out on the patio and just talk for a while, about 3:30 or 4 we finally fell asleep watching Carlos Mencia.
Day 2: Woke up at like 7 got ready and ate a little. We got a new bus (bigger) but the AC didn't work so at Walmart we switched to one, that unfortunetaly had a heated area on the driver side that took it's toll on me later. We went to UC Berkeley which was really nice, but had way to many stairs! lol. Telegraph Road was weird! After this we got back on the bus and i was by the heat, and headed to San Fran State, except we headed in the wrong direction had to turn around then got lost for like an hour in San Fran. I was like out of it just cause the heat and sun were getting to me, and Kayla was lucky and got to sleep through this lost incident. We got there and they were having a power outage. After a quick tour we headed for fisherman's wharf.
We walked around for a while followed the girls shopping and i forgot my chocolate :P but it was cool, I Walk It Out, I Walk It Out! hahaha. We barely made it back to the bus, with some BK and green icees haha. Long drive back to the hotel. We got there and went to play volleyball, it was ok but not as good as the day before. Rainbow wasn't feeling well :P sorry had to. We went back to the hotel and chilled this is where all the stuff went down in the girls room hahahaha max. Then later everyone chilled at Our room thet night.
Day 3: Another bus, another morning, i wasn't feeling to great this day, physically and some other stuff i was thnking about. We went to UC Santa Cruz and had a stoner tour guide. Good guide just weird when the adults were gone :P. It was nice but yeah, the we went back to San Jose and went to state there. It was hot and sunny but not a bad campus in the middle of the city. Later went to a mall and followed the girls around again. Finished there we some extreme bouncy ballin. Went to the airport and got to our gate, played cards for a while, and i really was feeling bad thats why i was really slow in Egyptian Rat Screw i think its called. We had a nice little plane ride we this awesome flight attendant. We played some rumey and go fish, and this secret that i am supposed to keep show its ugly head, but w/e. We got to SD and got off, i was really tired, forgot my chcoclate in max's bag and had to go get it. After saying goodbye, i left and got home, packed up my backpack for school today, took a shower, got attacked by my dog, and then went to bed on my new mattress and temper putic or however its spelled. Woke up today to see amanda's pictures up and was happy, and wnated to post so yeah.
Good trip overall.
~Flick
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Well Haven't Posted For A Bit
Cause not much i have to say lately. Today was funny Daniel changed the clockin class and we got out 10 minutes earlier we have to stay later tomorrow, but w/e. College trip this weekend, gonna be sweet! My friends and I are gonna have a lot of fun i think. It will be great to just chill and go on those tours. Always better than school :P.
I don't have anything planned for this saturday, it's prom but i'm not going, just not into this year. Senior prom definately but not this year. Lots of friends taking SAT, if anyone wants to chill hit me up we can do something.
Well yeah i'll talk to you all later.
Luv Ya'll
~Flick
I don't have anything planned for this saturday, it's prom but i'm not going, just not into this year. Senior prom definately but not this year. Lots of friends taking SAT, if anyone wants to chill hit me up we can do something.
Well yeah i'll talk to you all later.
Luv Ya'll
~Flick
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